Saturday, November 17, 2012

Fighting allegations

Someone added me to a email list and the moderator of this list, Ajay Dixit made a comment that I had mafia links. This is my reply to him, you might like to read it
"I wish Ajay Dixit explains his comment about my mafia links with truth and evidence and not some links and innuedos. We have all left our lives, comfortable jobs, families aside to fight for the nation against corruption. Do you think that someone who has a questionable past would take on the fight against the corrupt?
But one of the side effects of entering public life, are people like Ajay Dixit and his ilk. Initially, when I heard these unsubstantiated and cheap allegations against me, I felt like just quitting and going back to my cushy job - which I had quit on 12th august 2011, to fight the war for my nation. The negativity, the cheapness and the levels to which these accusers can go to filled my days and nights with questions and negativity. Prior to joining IAC, I was deep into spiritual search. Positivity and peace of mind were the effects of those meditational and blissful years.Some of my writings on spirituality can be found at
When Arvind asked me to take part in the IAC movement in Jan 2011, I decided to take a sabbatical from my activities and work for the movement. One of the primary reason was selfish. I felt that only when "What you think, what you say and what you do are aligned", do you achieve completeness, otherwise one is fractured from within. Having been exposed to the Indian knowledge system (meditation, yoga, ayurveda, astrology etc), I felt that it was the best civilizational ethos with one of the best conflict resolution systems and a holistic world view, and that this thought process based on knowledge, science and understanding should be the intellectual "jagat guru". Understanding that India can be the only "laboratory" of this knowledge system, it is extremely critical to make it a successful and prosperous nation. Therefore, when I think of the nation and what should be done to improve it, it was imperative that to become complete, I had to do what I believed in, even at the risk of destabilizing my life and exposing myself to people like Ajay Dixit.
I took up a job in 2006 end with my uncle's construction company to propagate his NGO "Remaking of Mumbai Federation" working as its secretary to plan an integrated, holistic redeveloped city to save the lives of lakhs of people living in over 20000 old and dilapidated buildings of south Mumbai. Unfortunately, my uncle died in March 2010 and the entire plan collapsed. I quit my job in Aug 2011, to fight for the nation, leaving aside my peace of mind and encountering a world which I never new - in which there would be people like Ajay Dixit whose only business is to throw muck. When the unfounded allegations against me surfaced by a RTI activist giving some interview to Mumbai Mirror, I tried to put the facts by writing a blog But the innuedoes, dark whispers, trolling by BJP supporters and Ajay Dixits of the world is taking its toll. I insisted that my name be cleared by putting my case before some of the best judges i.e. Internal Lokpal.
I am asking myself again and again, whether anything is worth this kind of negativity, whether I should go back to my earlier ways. My peace of mind is being affected. But, on the other side, i have never been a quitter. If I quit now, I would let down lakhs of people who have given so much love and respect. The last two years have been tumultous. On one side are these Ajay Dixits (a handful) and on the other lakhs of wonderful people who have given so much for others, for society and for the nation. So, like a pendulum moving from one side "Brahma or God" to "Maya or worldy affairs", I keep on oscillating. But, the pull of doing the right thing keeps me on the track of working nevertheless.
May I request Ajay Dixit (or whatever his real name is) to remove me from this hacked list. You are welcome to write any nonsense that you wish about me. God bless you."